Having 4 kids is crazy. A house that is never clean. Laundry that never ends. Kids that are never quiet. There is maybe 4 hours of silence a day here, and that would be when we are all sleeping. I am so thankful that these walls can’t talk.
I know there are some people with 5, 6, or 19 kids – but for us, it takes everything we have to survive with our 4 children.
What better way to describe our family. It’s beautiful chaos, but it’s chaos none the less. With the kids having to be out of the house at 7 am.
There’s 2 hours of commuting just for school a day.
There are the 2 toddlers who are home with my part-time and in school part-time.
There is my work, which I LOVE but have to balance when I can get it done with life. This typically calls for late late nights, and early mornings.
There is my dear husband who works so hard and does everything he can to help keep life in order.
There is the house that I SO LOVE but yet is constantly destroyed. I so want to make this house a home, but after a year – it’s still a work in progress.
There are friends who I miss.
There is church that I feel that I can’t find the time to serve for.
It’s all chaos.
When stepping back from the insanity and looking at how we survive, there are 4 words that keep resonating on how we embrace life’s chaos.
For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven: a time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted; a time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; a time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; … - Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
Being intentional, specifically with time is something I’ve had to be very aware of. As a previous people pleaser, my life was full of YES. Now, my life is full of, let me see when I can get that on the schedule.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me - 2 Corinthians 12:9
Grace is the best thing I have ever learned – but of course, like all good things – it’s something you have to constantly work on. In particular, grace with kids is something I struggle with. I need to let them be kids and understand that.
Let all that you do be done in love. – 1 Corinthians 16:14
Love. Love. Love. As a parent, I don’t know how one could not know love. These kids have taught me a love that I never knew existed. It’s unconditional. It’s ever-lasting. It’s everything. I have to love like God does, and with my kids… that’s not hard.
By faith we understand that the universe was formed at God’s command, so that what is seen was not made out of what was visible. – Hebrews 11:3 NIV
Thinking of the word FAITH – it goes hand-in-hand with the word TRUST. I have FAITH (trust) that all will be right – even when things could easily go so wrong. I have FAITH that at the end of my days, my life will be what God intended it to be.
Life’s chaos isn’t going anywhere. We can choose to embrace it – laugh, cry and just ride the ride – or we can choose to be miserable. Misery isn’t something I wear well. So here’s to crazy, chaos and enjoying everything – including the walls in our home that were just decorated with a bingo dauber. I so wish I was kidding on that last sentence.
At least it’s orange, i’m totally into that color now. *sigh*